This few months is a really hard moment for me... i've lost friends, lost heart and lost most of the things i though i had... I don't know to blame myself or who... I felt used? I felt played? I felt dumped? And i felt lost? I am really lost now... really really lost.... how i wish i don't have a heart or mind to think about it... just a heart to pump blood and a mind to do basic thing... i don't want to fan all these bullshits in life...
Sigh, my blog all about hurts and these bullshits. i don't even know who the hell would read these bullshits... but anyways, u've wrote a short little sentence at my facebook status which goes like this: I cry alone silently in my heart, it hurts just to wake up everyday.
I really feel that i am hurt inside everyday.. I don't get hurt immediately when i wake up but its the moment when i think where am i now in life. The answer is i am lost... thats when the hurt comes in.... sigh....
Signing off, 10.51pm 29/3/2010... good nite... :)
Name: Joel Kuan
