Woot woot...

Woot woot is my word baby!! woot... :P hehehe...

Anyways, i've not been updating my blog for awhile now.... so imma update it now~!

what happened in my life since the last update... hmmm a lot! hahaha...

my final project was a Say "Hi" campaign that we did successfully in college to create awareness of Saying Hi! :D

Don't be everything to everyone but be something to someone!

Wishing something will never work,
Being something to everyone doesn't count.

I want you to know i love you,
I need you to understand i miss you,
I hope you will know that i want you.

All i want is to be that special someone to you.

The meaning of Love

Let me tell you the meaning of love:

Love can never be heard,
And love can never be seen.
Love can never be touched,
Yet love can change a life.

Love is a feeling deep within,
no one has ever seen.
Love is a fruit in the heart,
that can grow sweet yet grow bitter.

Believe your heart,
to find your love,
Regret not your choice,
Because love will be waiting.

Here i have wrote a poem to someone that was asking how to know if someone really loves you... I believe that in order to know a person really loves you in just to believe and follow your heart. You cannot know if a person is loving you by just seeing what that person offers to you physically... You can only believe and feel the love... :)

I'm in KL Bitch~!

Yeah, i'm in KL Bitch...

22 October 2010, a day we celebrated Zining birthday and Benji birthday.... awesome night and Zining got screwed!!! hahahaha... kelian....

Let the photos tell the story~! :D

This is Yvonne Lee Yi Wen~!!! Pretty mah? hehehe...

Hahahaha... sitting at sofa the time ntg to do so take photo... :P

This is pretty Angelyne!

I'm in KL Bitch~!! Cliff, Benji and I

This is Zining, the awesome birthday girl!!

Joe Lee, Zining, Agnes.... nice pic... and u can see me behind! Muahaha


Hehehe.... too bad not all wearing huh.... all must wear liao!!!


Cliff, Zining, Benji, Elin, Yvonne and I!!! Wow... nice shot man!


This is my most valuable pic of that night... i love this pic!!

Hehe... thats Zining birthday!!! hehehe... got another special thing done by my mei mei also... She did an art work for her school.... with my name!!! JOEL

Thanks mei mei!!! <3 style="text-align: left;">Don't forget to like my blog at the sidebar~!!!! Post comments too... :) Peace!

What a productive days

Haha... i don't even know where to start!!! hahaha i am so busy that i forgot whatsup....

Anyways, next start from Friday...

Friday was a very enjoyable day as i do say so myself. The very first thing i did was a press conference presentation with 2 of my fellow classmates, Nick and Chen... hahaha... really laugh my pants of fire... hahahaha...

This is me emceeing for the press conference... Smart Casual man!!! hahaha


This is my group mate, Kobe C. and Nick C... Nick C. is a taiwan kampung artist! hahahaha!!!

Anyways, really fun to do press conference... we did a press kit and it was awesome! But too bad we didn't take photo of it... hahahaha...

Ok, after the press conference at 5pm, me and my emcee partner for Dasein Convocation had a final rehearse.... The convocation is on Saturday, i'll post photo of it later in this post... :D

After the rehearse at 7pm, i went for movie shooting... OMG tired but was a quick one... hahaha...

at 9pm i waited with Yvonne at her place for two stupid dumbass slow pokes who was late almost 1 hour plus... hahahaha.... Von was like wtf where are they!!! And i was like chill chill...hahaha.. Cute...

We went to Catherine birthday party at Duta Vista... had 'fun'... hahahaha... most of the time was in the room chatting with Vincent while that Ken Jin was busy doing photoshoot... hahaha ... Here are some of the photos:

I feel so sexy~! hahha


The guys that attended Cath birthday... These are the early onces... Terry, Funkzu, Monkey they all came later... hahahaha..


Haha i look like a noob... wtf photo is this... lol~!


Ahhh, this one looks better... hahahaha.... just my outfit sucks... hahaha... what to do!!! Its a pajamas party!!!! hahaha


Behind the scene shot!!! hahaha....


This is the dumbo that made us late... hahaha

Thats about it for my Friday night... i reached home about 3am plus... hahahaha....

Anyways, back down to Saturday Night, it was time for Dasein 9th Graduation Day... nice? The best part is i am the Emcee!!!! Along with my partner HwiYee... hehehehe... Let the photo do the talking... :D

OMG， i look good, don't I? hahaha

My Leng lui senior... hehehe

One leng zai senior and one leng zai helper... haha

Leng Zai Kwai Ken and Leng Lui Sheriene... hehehe... :D

Leng Lui Dora le... hair long jor... hehehe


Leng Lui jie jie Xiao Yee.


Fuyoh i look so LC.... hahaha


Leng Lui Xuan... hehehehe... helper and Emcee... :D


This is me and my emcee partner Hwi Yee... hehe


Cute cute Agnes... *Does this count as annoying~!" hehehe..

Thats about all the photo i have... this year i took very little photos at convocation... last year like 100 plus... this year very less... hahahaha... anyways this is long and only blog that i shared so many photos....

Do leave comments yeah~! hahaha Update soon... see ya!

PS: Some clubbing song for you to enjoy! hahaha

Your love

You was,
You were,
You am
and you are.

Why was i late i asked myself,
How was i slower, i wept alone.
You've chosen your man filled with love,
I see you go, filled with sorrow.

How can i bring you back to me?
Life's just ain't right without you in my life.

Sigh.. the only expression i could show.
Saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing,
but waiting for you has just begun!

Wow.... what a wonder poem that just popped up in my head... Hope you guys like it... Anyways, i'm really really tired today... i don't have enough sleep but i still have so many things to do and accomplish.

I just wrote out my schedule on facebook and it was a shocker!! Begin of tomorrow i will start this schedule:

9am-12pm class, 1pm-5pm presentation, 5pm-7pm final emcee rehearse, 7pm-8pm movie shooting, 8pm-2am birthday party. 3am-8.30am sleep. 9am-1pm class, 1pm-2pm rest, 3pm-12am convocation, 12am-2am outing, 3am-9am sleep...

Awesome right!!! Ok, i'm going back to finish my assignment... :)

PS: this song really matches the poem i guess:

Shisha Night

Wow... enjoyed Shisha... hahahaha.... my friends played with their bottles and made smoke inside the bottle.... nice? hahahaha~!

Hahaha... my friend first time smoke Shisha, he vomited... noob!!! hahaha...

Random... yeah~! hahaha

I looked up to the sky,
I see nothing but a blue sky

I looked down into the ocean,
I see nothing but a sky carpet of water

I look straight into your eyes,
I see everything but blues.

Loves <3

A day out with my parents~!

Wow, i had a long day out with my parents...

Places i visited today, accordingly... :D
1. Mont Kiara's Sugimoto Japanese Restaurant
2. The Curve
3. Sweetchat at The Curve
4. Starbucks at The Curve
5. Bavarian Bierhaus German Bar at The Curve
6. Restaurant Thai at Jalan Gasing
7. Rumahku Restaurant at Jalan University...

Wow!!! My parents and I went to sooo many places!!! Provided we were with my dad's childhood friends... Had a nice time with them... hard to spend like the whole day out with them... :D

It was kinda boring when all my dad's childhood friend were together... coz i'll be like the 'OFF TOPIC' person... WHAT! I'm 19 and their 50+!!!

At Sweetchat we ate Durian Pancake, Red Rudy ice thingy and a cendol.... awesome!

My Red Ruby Ice Thingy~!

At The Curve, fitness first was launching some new fitness gadget thingy... suspension something... LOL! They asked me to join the contest to win like 1k worth of things.... i was like nonono, i did gym yesterday and my arms are killing me! No more suspension... Than my mom said "He so thin! The suspension pull him not he pull the suspension"... i was like MOM!!!! hahahaha~!!

Anyways, they were so kind to give us two goodies bags... There is a shirt, a pen and a note book inside!!! wow~!

The FitnessFirst goodies bag... :D

Well, thats about it.... i didn't take much photos except for these two... :D Off to spam Facebook~! hehehehe

My poem of the moment

As I saw you walked pass me,
it's like magnet attracting metal.
You touch my heart just by your smile,
and I'll never forget the first sight i had.


Maybe it's just a thought why i miss you,
Maybe it's just a coincident why i met you,
But there's no maybe why i love you.

to whom i speak, to where i should seek,
the answer to why i am in love,
with you, an angel, sent from above.

<3

Time to update my blog

I visited one of my friend blog... Her background song and her photo just led me to think of updated her blog... May Be

I have not updated my blog since ages!! But anyways, since the last i updated my blog. Tons and tons of thing happened in my life that i really couldn't explain. Sigh...

I'm always putting a smile on my face and yes i am happy... But deep down inside, there are many unsolved and unanswered questions....

I miss the past a lot. I miss my dad, i miss my life... My dad has gotten really sick since i last updated. How i wish things could just turn around that i can tell him "dad, i was there, please listen to me'...

Daddy and I at Berlin, Germany.

Well, pray for my daddy ok! I really want him to be with me till I die..

Things have changed a lot!!! One of the obvious thing is my hair is short! Super short...

Haha.... anyways... Lets look forward yeah! A poem is in my head now... am gonna write it out...

My little short ghost story~

Once upon a time, The Wilson family lived in a lovely and small neighborhood. This small town they lived in is called Witch Town. Although the town is called Witch Town, there is nothing bad or evil about this town except for an unoccupied haunted mansion on top of the Hill of Witch Town. Children around the neighborhood love to play around this small town, they are afraid to even go near to that Hill of Witch Town. One day, Anne Wilson, the grandmother of the family, though it was time to tell her grand children the story about that house on the Hill of Witch Town. She gathered them around the fireplace on a cold snowy night. There were 4 grand children, Tim, Joe, Des and John. These 4 boys is one of the naughtiest kids in town and they were known as the Wilson’s spoil brat. As soon as the clock strike 12 midnight on that cold snowy night, grandmom Anne begin to tell the kids about that unoccupied mansion on the Hill of Witch Town.

She begins the story well dated back 1 century ago where the Dickson family used to stay in that mansion. She told the children that 1 century ago, the Dickson family is the most lovable family in the whole neighborhood. Anne mom used to take her and her sister Jane up to the Dickson mansion to play with their kids Julie and Bob. The Dickson family always has a big smile and welcomes us into their house gracefully. The Dickson family is also one of the riches families in Witch Town. What was new to the town, the Dickson are sure to have it. Jane and I loved to play with Julie and Bob new toys because every time we visited their house, there is sure something new to play with. One dark and cloudless night, the moon was full and the wolves were howling everywhere, we heard a sound thunder like sound came out from the Dickson mansion. As the full moon was directly above the Dickson mansion, we could see owls flying around it, bats scavenging for food and wolves roaming around the mansion. Jane and I were of cause very scare to go up to Dickson mansion to see what happened. Despite the mysterious things happening around Dickson mansion, Jane and I went to bed.

The next morning before we woke up, our mom woke us up saying that the Dickson’s was murdered. Jane and I couldn’t believe our ears that our best friends were murdered that night. The reason they were murder remains a mystery till today. Since that day when the Dickson was murdered, whenever there was a full moon, we can hear the voices of Julie and Bob playing with their toys and also their parents cooking. We did not ever go back to the Dickson mansion and soon later we called the Dickson mansion a haunted mansion. The end.

As soon as Tim, Joe, Des and John heard the story, they passed the story among themselves in school, tuition, and playground and so on. Soon after that, all the children around the Witch Town neighborhood knew about this story. All the children gathered together one day and plotted to go up into the haunted mansion on a full moon. They waited anxiously for that full moon to arrive. As soon as the night was cloudless, the wolves was howling and the full moon was above that haunted mansion, all the children gather and begin to slowly walk towards the haunted mansion. As like in the story said by grandmom Anne, it was true that sounds of children playing could be heard. Children afraid begin to slowly back away from the haunted mansion, some children gave up and didn’t wish to continue the journey. Tim, Joe, Des and John had also back away because it was too scary to continue on.

From that day on, the Witch Town has organized a charity event to raise fund to demolish that mansion. The history of Dickson and the murder case remains a mystery. The End.

Wrote it for a friend because she said need help but i felt a story shouldn't be continue by some other people's work so i started the whole thing.... hahaha... after reading my own story i had the goosebumps last night... lol!!!

Inspire by my friend

I was chatting with my friend who is really emo now... he is my beloved brother.... he was talking about that girl he liked 2 years and till today he haven give up but the girl haven accept him...

We were talking and he inspire me to write this lil poem:

Alone,
My life is without a soul,
Unknown,
The bird of without wings.

You,
A girl that replace my soul,
Couple,
That replace my wings in my heart.
I may fly freely and shout it out from my soul,
To say,
I like you,
I am still liking you all these years.

Through this poem, i hope that he can get his one true love.... because i have sum up what he said into this poem.... bro good luck to you... wish you all the best...

Will not give up.

After reading your message, i still won't give up waiting. I'm so in love with you that i won't give up. I know myself that i am in love because i can only write poems when i am in love and i did.... moreover you give me hope in opening my eyes everyday to see another day know that i love you.... BLOG DIRECTORY, Submit blog free, Promote Blog, Best directory

Come with me

Come, walk with me.
I will take you to a place.
Where sweet love grows.
and where love are coupled.

Come, talk to me.
I will tell you how in love i am
Where my heart belongs
and whom i am in love.

Come, knock the door.
I will give you an answer
the answer of love
and the love for that answer.

Come, be with me.
I will give you all my heart,
to you whom i love
And love you forever more.

Wow i wrote another poem to my love one. Till now, i still haven tell her i like her... How can this happen to me? Am i such a fool not to do so? Am i such a coward not to face too?

But all in all, i confessed my love through my poems. This is the second poem i wrote about her. About that special someone i am always talking about. About that special girl i love.

I wrote in my Facebook status

♥。 是时候要跟他说，我喜欢你。♥

When can i say it out? I really want her to know i like her. Oh God, please help me and give me the strength to tell her.

A girl i knew

Love, a wonderful love,
Dream, never dreamt before,
Heart, sent by an Angel above.

You have changed my world with a blink of an eye,
That is something i cannot deny.
You took me from worst to better,
Thats why i treasure you and every moment with it.

I look into your eyes through the clear blue sky,
Seeing the love in that clear cute eye.
I've never been in love so long,
To see the love i had all along,
Where my heart belong.

Since i've known you, i've never shed a tear,
I'm so in love with you that you took away my fear,
You've make my life better so i could live worthwhile,
But it's so much better when you have that smile.

All the things you have made,
has caused me not to fade,
Now my life is better than a dream,
Since the day i'm in love with you.

It has come to the end of the poem,
which i will store in my album,
The album of me and you.
But before i end,
I want the say 3 words you know,
I love you, that is what i want to show!

That is my poem i am writing to the girl i am in love. Her name is Rachel.... I've never said this in public her name.... The day she came into my life, its the day everything changed. Like in the poem said 'you took me from worst to better' and indeed she really did. I've gone through so many issues before i know her. The moment she stepped into my life is the very moment i was about to give up and lose faint in myself...

In the poem i said "all the things you have made, has caused me not to fade"... i was about to fade away from life that i've given up on myself but she did not... she had encourage me in her very special own way which i am really grateful.

This isn't a coincident i knew her because everything happened for a reason and Angels above lead me to her for this very reason, not to fade away....

I still have tell her i like her, i love her in person.... i am afraid she will be scare of me.... But i hope all of you enjoy the poem i wrote... This poem is specially dedicated to:

What a hard moment to bear

Its been again, so so long since i updated my blog... well today i just finished work and i've got nothing to do.. so though of writing my blog...

This few months is a really hard moment for me... i've lost friends, lost heart and lost most of the things i though i had... I don't know to blame myself or who... I felt used? I felt played? I felt dumped? And i felt lost? I am really lost now... really really lost.... how i wish i don't have a heart or mind to think about it... just a heart to pump blood and a mind to do basic thing... i don't want to fan all these bullshits in life...

Sigh, my blog all about hurts and these bullshits. i don't even know who the hell would read these bullshits... but anyways, u've wrote a short little sentence at my facebook status which goes like this: I cry alone silently in my heart, it hurts just to wake up everyday.

I really feel that i am hurt inside everyday.. I don't get hurt immediately when i wake up but its the moment when i think where am i now in life. The answer is i am lost... thats when the hurt comes in.... sigh....

Signing off, 10.51pm 29/3/2010... good nite... :)

Define Playboy

Few days ago, i've posted an issue which is 'haunting' me or pissing me off here in my blog which is the issue of being called a playboy. Let us define playboy:

1. A person who love sex
2. A person who is a member of a Playboy Magazine/Community
3. A person who couple tons and tons of girl.
4. A person who never been in a serious relationship
5. A person who couple and just leave

These are the definition of playboy. Playboy was actually meant to use towards the 3 definition. Let me ask all of the people that said i am a playboy. In which category do i fall under? In which line or sentence to i fall under? I can say NONE!!!!

I never had sex before! I am not a member of the Playboy Community, i have never couple tons of girls, i have been in 2 serious relationship before and i don't just couple and leave!!!!!

None of the definition says that faces are identify as a playboy. NONE!!!! As i said in the previous post, i am bored this way. Its my look, its my identity, my face is like my virtual IC! from baby till old i will carry this face and this face is how people identify me!!! But no, i am carry this face to be identify as a playboy???? What you want me to do!? Cut my damn face out!? Burn it?! Hell no! I love my face, i ain't Michael Jackson!

I posted a status at facebook stating i am serious with love, i am not a playboy and guess what replies i got? Well its simple.... i got was: "really", "You sure", "Hear first" and so on. Oh sure! Asking me really??

Some told me to prove to them i am not a playboy, well if there is a way to prove i will do it but what???? There is nothing to prove!!! For example, 1+1=2... prove that to me!!! How the hell are you gonna prove it??? 1+1 is already equal to 2! There is no explanation! its just the law of numbering. Like my good friend told me, how we gonna prove? Find a girl, couple with her for a very very long time only can prove??? That ain't proving, that is just being a jerk!!!!

There are also people telling me, you not playboy and serious with love but u are always looking at girls. Guys are meant to look a girls.... Law says guys only can marry girls (Other country vary)... and that is what i am doing!!!!!!!! I am freaking looking a girls to find the perfect one!!! That makes me a playboy because i follow the nature of boy??? Are you expecting me to close my eye every single day and night not looking at a single thing????

(i am now writing this blog with a bitter heart and emo status)

3 of my good friends and few more other friends told me not to care what others says as long you know you didn't do it. But, its easier said than done!!!! I cannot just close my ear and ignore. I am a person who really cares what people think of me or say about me. If its not true but yet everyone is saying me that, i'll get pissed!! PISSED OFF!

For example the 1+1=2 example i gave, you know the law says that 1+1 must equal to 2 but everyone seem to disagree... won't you get pissed off???? Won't you?! its the law, its the nature of number but yet they are disagreeing because they don't understand it!!!

Please to all my fellow readers and followers, if you were to say something about someone, please think if the same thing would to be said to you... how'd you feel!? HOW?!?!?!!!!!!

Good Night!!!

Being called a playboy

There are many times where i have been called a playboy. The reason they gave me was i look like a playboy.

I am born as Joel Kuan with this look. Many say my face is shape, many say i am too thin, many say i am short, many say i am underweight but these i don't mind. What really turn me over is when someone calls me a playboy.

I take that word literally.

My heart has been broken by a girl who really played me for 3 days when i had my 'first love'. I know how it hurts to be played and i never did played anyone but why am i defined as a playboy? I can be immature, i can be childish but i never am a playboy when it comes to love. When i love someone, i put my whole heart on it!

I always have this thinking in my mind when someone calls me a playboy:

"I have friends that have been in a relationship for more than 10 times breaking hearts one after another, they are the true playboy. I have only been a relationship twice, both are really long and yet i am still consider as a playboy. What i did wrong? Why should i put up with all the stress to love my girlfriend when i am still being called a playboy? Should i just give up and really be a playboy!?"

*I am writing this blog here with a bitter heart*

After reading this post, you might think, what the hells wrong with calling you a playboy? You answers might be: I am just playing, just kidding, that is what you are and so on. Well i want to tell you, this 7 letter word can really flip me over... I can turn from a happy-go-lucky person to a totally down right stressed out, moodless person!!!

Who can understand this feeling???? Who can?! No one does coz everyone just judge me by "i-have-a-playboy-look"...

Long time no update

Haha, its been awhile since i updated my blog... well not really awhile la... let me take my calculator ya.... hmmm.... 4 February 2010 minus 22 December 2009 = 44 days... wow.... i didn't even use my calculator! My math is still in me! Woot woot...

Ok anyways i update my blog is coz one of my lovely friend ask to "fast fast update!" so now i am fast fast'ing updating...

Ok lets see what happened to me so far... since this 44 days.... Ok here are the list:

1. Get dengue and admitted for 10 days with 3-4 hours in ICU. (December 27 - January 7)
2. I met with a serious accident just outside my college and house. (January 22)
3. Well that two above is enough to make headlines in my whole college and church. But anyways we just had a 'celebrate-success-bbq-party' at my place last monday.

Ok let me tell you one by one the things happened in this 44 days! hahaha..

I kena dengue o! Beli beli serious punya dengue case o! Die liao lo! hahaha.... Macam uncle kat pasar belcakap o! hahaha... Ok anyways, i was admitted to Gleneagle for ten days at Penang. I suspect i got this dengue from Park Royal Hotel coz when i was there, my dad open the windows and i complained there were mosquito's biting me.... Moreover Park Royal was a beach hotel and i was at the ground floor... so there were 3 possible evidence that i got the dengue from Park Royal Hotel. Its a nice hotel tho! I love the burgers there! Damn expensive but damn huge and nice to eat! Fuyoh if u thin, u one fellow sure cannot finish... but i can! Muahahaha! I am fat!!!

Ok anyways back to the stupid dengue thingy... i was admitted right after the day i went to club.... my friends were shocked too coz when i was at the club, i was so lifely and jumping all over the place but right after that (just about 6 hours after the club), i complained to my dad i have damn serious headache and diarrhea... my dad felt me and said i am fine without any fever but i insisted i wanna go see a doctor... so we went to find a clinic but there weren't any 24 hours so he took me to Gleneagle emergency clinic for a checkup and the doctor immediately says i am suspected with dengue.... DAMN! after he said that, the nurse said: ok we have to put drips into you... i can remember i told the nurse WAIT!!!! Let me get ready before u poke that thing into my hand! And she laughed out loud... lol... (still a joker even i am sick! Muahaha)... Ok that after she put it in, i told her again. I said i always though to myself i never ever want to have drips in my hand but there, before my eyes... the thing is in my hand... == swt...

Few days later i was sent into the ICU for 3-4 hours because i had a serious side effect from maybe the food, poisons of dengue or even the medication... The side effect was that my eye rolled back where u will see my eye all white, my jaw went one side and my head tilted upwards... i couldn't control a thing that at a point i got frustrated and started to bang the bed,,,, 4 nurse (2 was damn hot! Man i still can see hot chics than! Woot) and 1 doctor tried to hold me down but i was furious and without any choice, the nurse injected me with those sleeping medication and i felt a sleep... the next time i know, i am out of ICU and am at the X-ray room does tons of xray... even the same xray that pregnant lady do, the one to see the baby one... ==

OK Thats all! After 10 days i go home and eat asam laksa coz since i am at penang... eat lok lok and watch movie! Bought clothings too! hahaha... dengue over only spend like hell...

Anyways here is a photo of me and a photo of my drip..:



Ok next is my car accident... i don't have to say much... just see the photo i took after i overcome a bit of my shocked and calm down a bit:

Ok i skidded... :P hahaha.... anyways my friends weren't hurt and i wasn't too... both my friends had minor injuries and i have none... we are really lucky really really lucky... bro no more next time ok! *Man Hugs* i don't wanna talk so much about this coz i am still trying to overcome it. Sometimes when i close my eye, i will put myself back in the driver seat when this happened..

3rd event is the celebration party... hahaha... my senior, DMC073 hosted a party at my place to celebrate their success for the premiere of their short film, we were invited too coz we helped out to make that event happen... :D anyways here are some photos of the BBQ Party:


Photos by: Sheriene Cheng

See the second pic,,, the dude with red tshirt and red pants? Thats me! i was in all red that day... hahaha.. hot red!!! :P.... anyways had a great time...

Ok thats all for my super long essay/blog... more towards essay... haha... well got more photo! But visit my facebook la! :D

See you very soon!!

P/S: nah yan, i update le... man man read la~ hahaha!